It happened. Today!!

A day has come that I really never thought would come. I mean, yes I had the surgery and yes, I hoped it would work. But in the back of mind I was a little pessimistic. I've been doing well and making progress. However. Each time the weight loss slows a bit or I (gasp!!) actually gain a pound, I tell myself 'Well, that's it. I'm done.  But it's ok, I'm happy that I've lost 30 pounds. That's awesome!'.  Then the next day, I'm down another pound and it blows my mind again. So today it happened. I stepped on the scale. And it said (not out loud or anything....you know what I mean....) 240.6!  Do you know what that means?!?!?  I've officially lost 50 pounds. I'm halfway to my goal of 100 pounds.  In just 12 weeks (including the pre-op diet). I'm so excited I can barely stand it!  This has got me even more motivated. I actually went out and walked yesterday morning. It was only 70 degrees and felt amazing. And guess what else?  I'm in my size 18 clothes!  Now granted, some of them are tighter than others. But they zip and that's what counts, right?  In fact here's a pic of me in some size 18's (SO excited!!).

Confession Time

1.  In case you haven't noticed, I haven't posted on here since August 8th.
2.  I haven't been 100% faithful in tracking my food.
3.  I don't always remember to take my vitamin every day.
4.  I usually forget to take my calcium pill (Because it's chewable and it takes HORRIBLE!  However, I've recently switched to Calcium chocolate chewables and they taste SO much better).
5.  I still weigh myself WAY more than I should...usually in the morning and several times before bed.
6.  I eat my food way too fast.
7.  Which has caused me to throw up twice.
8.  And made me wish I could throw up more times than that.
9.  I still have eyes way too big for my stomach.
10.  I miss eating large volumes of food, so sometimes I don't want to go out to eat.  It's just sad.

In spite of all that, I'm still doing GREAT!!  I do not regret having this surgery one single day.  Not one!  It's the best decision I've ever made.  I'm still grieving the loss of food, but I'm finally getting used to the fact that I can't eat more than 5 or 6 bites.  Then I'm done.  I've thrown away more food than I care to think about.  And it kills me.  But it's a new fact of my life.

I'm back now and I'm re-committing to keeping up with this blog.  We'll see how long that lasts.  :-)

Here are some before/after photos, just for grins and giggles.

March 2013

August 2013 - down 40 pounds

Day before surgery

August 2013

 9/2/2013 Data:

Weight:  247.4 (43 pounds - yeah baby!!!)
Exercise:  20 minute walk with the fam